Monday, October 29, 2007

WTF is wrong with me?

Wow I cant explain what the fuck is up with me. Today, I saw a fish sittin down hu with 350 bucks and while we were playin another god awful player sat down with 350. I won about 300+ in 15 minutes. Then I just had no desire to play. There was free money atmultiple tables. If I put a session in ida probably made 2-3k at least. However, I decided to quit due to lack of focus and enthusiasm.

I ask myself how is this possible. I really dont get it. I mean free money on the table and Ipass it up due to lack of focus and enthusiasm. What the hell? I do have a test tommorrow that I need to study a little more but still that wasnt weighing in on my decision. I have never in my life not felt like playing poker for a week straight. I mean how do I feel like this now after a 27k heater in 10 days.

I have 3 more tests before thanksgiving break with 1 being tommorrow. The other 2 are my mathmatical tests which will take a lot of hard studying hours. I really cannot wait for break. I really need it. I have been doing pretty well in my classes tho, which I am very proud of.

The emotions that I go through in a day are just insane. I do it to myself and I dont know why I do. Sometimes Ill lay in bed and ask myself how the hell am I sohappy and having a great time during a part of the day. Then another part I get myself down and I dont feellike doing anything. I have made a promise to myself that this wont continue.

Over the next few weeks I am going to do some very important things that will help me for the summer and for my life after that. I have made a committment to put away 40k a year towardsmy retirement and another 40k per year towards a house. I have done some calculations using my skills from finance class :). After 10 years if I get 6% interest on my money compounded yearly, I will have 527k+ to spend on a house. I figure to make no less than 200k during this time, so this goal should be easily attainable. I am also putting 40k a year towards retirement. If I could get 6%APR on that compounded monthly then I should have around 1,000,000 after 15 years which should get me settled down and I then can be able to enjoy life. Hopefully I can get an even better rate than 6%.

I am also going to do some networking to get me prepared for the summer. I have 4 or 5 companies that I am going to give my resume to where I feel they will give me a job. I am going to try PNC Bank. This bank is where I do my business and I have become close with some of the branch managers because they sometimes have to do special things for me. Another place I am going to try is Lionsgate. This one guy has been sayin to me for the past couple of years that he wants me to work there out of college. He said he could get me a job right away. I would absolutely love this job I think. I love movies. The only prob with getting an internship there is that the internships are in sacremento, new york, and Boston. I am not at all ready to leave the state. However, they said that they are probably going to get a branch in Pittsburgh very soon, which I really hope they do because ultimately I'd love to work here. There are a few other places as well.

I have realized that getting this job will help me down the road. I mean I still do want to play poker. I realized that I could do both. I play poker around 21 hours a week. Thats like a part time job. I definately would be able to squeeze the hours in even if I had a job. The job will also give me a sense of responsibility and committment. In the future I will probably get a job, because I will be able to get benefits which are very important and have some stability. I will be able to do this while having poker, which I know I am best at, on the side for a lot of extra income. I plan to pay the bills with my job earnings and save towards my retirement and towards a new house with my poker winnings.

I look forward to accomplishing all of these goals in the upcoming months and years to come. Hopefully, when I look back on this blog a year down the road I will be on the right path to having a successful life. Thank you for reading.

Gl,
Pete

Sunday, October 28, 2007

PSU is sweet

Well this post is just going to be about what Ive done this weekend, because I havent played poker in about 4 days. I am on a sick heater and it may seem stupid not to play but you cant play poker if ur not in the right frame of mind. You have to want to play or you will get your brains beat in.

This weekend I went to PSU and had an awesome time. There were so many random things that occurred. I am going to talk about some of the things that we did. First, we got there on Friday night. We went to a costume party and I went as a gangster/ Frank Sinatra. I was styling lol. It was a good time. There were a lot lof cool costumes. Jared was the publishers clearinghouse guy, someone was lloyd and harry from dumb and dumber. There was also a someone who was Marilyn Monroe and we all know how much Marilyn loved Frank lol.

Saturday was pretty awesome too. It was Osu who was number 1 in the country playing PSU. Jared and Poose woke up at 6:00 after going to bed at 4 to get on College gameday. They got in the 2nd row and made it on tv. The tailgate was awesome. 110,000 people partying and having a good time. Then we went into the game.

There was this old dude sitting next to me from Ohio State who I started talking to. We talked about everything from girls to financial situations and how he retired at 55. Then this kid behind us was acting like an ass, and he said to the kid, "Why can't you just be a nice young man like this kid here," pointing to me haha. I felt better getting this compliment than when I win 5k in a day.

Well it was an awesome time and I look fwd to going back in the near future.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

12k in 2 days is pretty sweet

Well this run im on is a little bit of a joke. I tend to go on crazy runs sometimes but this is my 3rd best 10 day stretch ever. It may be the 2nd. The past 2 days I have won 12k. Over the course of the last 10 days, I have made a little more than 27k which is just awesome. 81k in 30 days would be...ok now im just dreaming.

I have played almost perfect. There have been a few hands that I have played pretty poorly but that is expected. You're not gonna play evry hand perfect. I know its cliche but its true. I am going to post some of my hands.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621895
Gay

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621900
I mean wtf was this guy thinking?

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621902
Love these

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621908
I make a good read vs a donk

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621915
running good

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621921
Schooled this gy

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621927
This gy sucked.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621924
Same gy as above. This was heads up. I weas owning this gy. then he really schooled me this hand. I thought he had complete air.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1621931
Man I really really really really really fucked this hand up

I found it pretty cool that someone saw my blog and posted the part of my blog about life in their blog. Well I might as well talk about life for a little. Dammit, still dont feel that great. I mean you would think 27k in 10 days would make me feel better. But it just goes back to the point I made that money isnt everything. I dont know quite what else to say about how I feel.

Well heres to life turning around as well as continued success playing poker. Best of luck to everyone with poker and esp their lives in general.

Gl,
Pete

Monday, October 22, 2007

I guess things are going well

Today, I did not play any poker. It was my grandmas birthday so my family came down here and we all went out to dinner. It was a good time. Then I came home and watched some NFL football. I have failed to write in my blogs that I enjoy betting sports. Im usually around a break even bettor. This week I lost a couple more than I won. I dont bet much on each game. I bet about 20 games a weekend for between 150-200 bucks a piece.


Poker has been going pretty amazing. I won about $12000 this week and $15000 over my past 7 poker days days where I have logged about 28 hours of play. About 450 an hour is pretty solid. I finally got poker tracker which I love. Hopefully it uploads my stas which are my past 4 days of play. I am finally up for October which is amazing seeing as where I was 1.5 wks ago. However, like my roomate, Matt, always tells me, "Your gonna get it all back and then some." This is what he tells me everytime things are going bad. He has been right everytime so far.

In general life has been ok. It could def be better. Im geting up tommorrow at 10 to do some marketing work for a group project due tommorrow. Then I gotta learn some finance to take a quiz b4 1 PM Tues.


I've been watching a lot of political shit recently. I don like politics but I do it because at our apt. we cant hook cable up in our rooms so we only have cable in the living room. My roomate is a Ron Paul fanatic lol. I put up with it because he puts up with my frustrations pretty well. I consider this returning the favor.


Well heres to a good week hopefully. Both in life and on the poker table.


Gl
Pete


Saturday, October 20, 2007

Rolling!!!

Over the past 9 days I have made a little over 12k. I am playing great and running well. Since my 15k downswing at the beginning of the month, I have made about 17k to get up for October. Combine that with the 51k 33 days before that. So poker has been very good to me. I am going to post some of my big hands over the past few days.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607624
This is a tough hand. I make a very BIG BIG fold on the river. I put him on either 56 or bacdoor hearts. I just dont see what I beat on the river here.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607632
This was a very nice hand for me. When he came in cold after I raised I thought maybe he had a higher set. However, I dont think I can fold this hand.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607636
Wow I suck...This was a terrible play. It was my first reraised pot after about 100 hands of 3 handed. I shoulda just check folded the turn.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607641
Lets just say this guy was an idiot.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607643
Love them bodog stations.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607647
Again love them stations.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607650
Love that turn.

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607668
I mean r u fucking kidding? lol Best part was he instacalled

http://www.pokerhand.org/?1607673
Bricking the deck

Well, making cash is nice...still not the best of weeks. I mean =/. Schoolwork is never fun.
I had some school work to do which went pretty well. The marketing test wasnt too hard and we started to work on our marketing project. I also did a lesson learned presentation that went pretty well. The final assignment was this real easy HRM thing but it took me like 5+ hrs which was a little brutal.

For some idiotic and bizarre reason, I am beginning to like school. I have no idea why. I kinda like my classes and meeting new friends. The work doesnt bother me nearly as much as it used to. I am still working on an internship for the summer. I am trying to work for Lionsgate or UPMC. It should be a new experience and I just want to see how I will like a job.

Well hopefully my heater continues in poker.

Gl,
Pete

Monday, October 15, 2007

Short session solid win

Today I fell asleep at aroun 11,however aroun 1 I awoke and could not fall back to sleep. I prolly should have done some work but i decided to log a short 45 min poker session booking a nice 1300 win. I am up almost 5k in my last 3 sessions. The last 2 weeks I was down 13k but why is it that I feel worse.


Goddamit it is really pissing me off. I dont need to struggle sleeping. I dont need not being able to concentrate on my work. However, I gotta deal with it right now.I have had more success than I ever could have imagined at such a young age. I have made 300k in 17.5 months. I go on 5-7 vacations a year. I golf everyday. My friends kick fucking ass. I sleep till when I want. Pretty much I do what I want when I want and I dont get much opposition. This is wonderful and I am very thankful to be so fortunate.

Despite all of this, I am not happy. I am sick to my stomach 24 7. I cant sleep eat or do anything. I do nice things for people and want nothing in return. When we go on tips I pay for most of my friends shit. When I golf I sometimes buy the round. I am caring and would do anything for anybody. Deep down I am a good person and I just want to be happy.

I have realized that money means jack shit if you dont have people to share it with. Money pretty much means nothing. I dont need it. It doesnt make me feel better about myself. Im not better than the average joe on the street. Im not better than the average father struggling to support a family. I hate people who change when they get money. They think their cool and that they r something special. Well they are not.

I hate the fact that you need money to survive in this world. Thats how everybody judges success. Even I do it at times. This just should not be the case. If you have money you should be generous and share it with the people around you. Despite helping people, its definately nice to stash some away towards a retirement.

All I want in life is to make money so that my life is easier and can provide for a family. I dont want it to spend on myself or make myself feel or look better. I still wear the same clothes and act the same as I did one year and a half ago when I didnt have a dime.

I have realized that I just want someone special in my life to share in my good times and my bad ones. Money sure doesnt make me happy but the people in my life sure as hell do. One day we are all going to be dead. No single human is that important. We are just a small pea in a giant pod. No one person is born better than another person. However how you treat people and having an impact on the world can make you better than your peers.

I just want people to realize that money isnt everything. It helps to have but it doesnt give you the little and most important things in life. My friends and family is all that matters to me and I hope I can do whatever I can to help them. I would also like to have an impact on other people too.

Ill say it again. Money doesnt mean shit if you dont have loving, special, and caring people in your life.

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Bittersweet

Well as anyone who reads my blog knows, which is noone lol, I have been on a ridiculously bad downswing. However, I recently got out of this downswing winning about 3500 the past couple days. I playede very well so I am pleased.

Now to the bitter part of the past few days. In my upcoming blogs I am going to have a section on poker and a section for my life in general. The bitter part is that my "gf" and I broke up after about 2 years and 8 months.This is very hard time for me. I feel hopeless and lost a little on what to do now.However, I have realized that I have to get rid of my selfish pity and move on. Over these 3 years I learned so much that I didnt know I had the capability of doing. I learned to really love and care for someone as well as learning commitment. Commitment is very important to me and I am greatful for learning this.

Over the next few months I am not going to sulk around and think that i wasted my time. This is just not the case. It was not a waste of time. It was the best 3 years of my life and I will never forget my wonderful memories with her. I would like to share some of these moments.

Going over her house and just hanging out.
Our little names that we used to call each other were always my favorite.
We used to talk in this stupid little voice to each other that only we found funny.
Having sleep overs.
Seeing her face light up when she got excited.
Bailing her out of little dilemmas like when she accidentally got a flight to Canton bc they werent running any to Pittsburgh

Now I would like to share some qualities.
I loved her smile
She had the most beautiful eyes
Finally and most important her caring heart. She is such a wonderful girl.

Hopefully, something happens somewhere down the line. I dont know what that may be. I just know that I had a wonderful 3 years and I'm sad to see this end. Thanks for everything. I know you dont read my blog or will ever see this but thanks again.

Petey

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

Still Struggling

Well I recntly had that 15k+ downswing. However I was getting a lot of it back I was up a little over 9k and was only 6k shy of my all time peak. Then today happened. There were really no big hands and I just kept gettin it in bad. I played awful and lost about 5k.

I recently purchased cardrunners which I happen to like a lot. However their style only works against good players. Its not a style that works real wellon bodog unless its against the regulars. Their are so many donks who just check call all 3 streets. I am going to try to mix my old style and this new style together. I am going to just wait for a big hand or just try to catch on the donks and get sick implied odds which theyalways give. Against the regulars I am gonna play very agressively because I know they will fold hands. I look forward to adding this new type of play into my game. Hopefully it works out.

Gl
Pete

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Wow I run so fucking bad

Seriously, Im playing amazing poker the past 3 or 4 days, literally perfect poker. Yesterday I was up 4500 then got sucked out onor coolered and ended up 2800. Well it was deja vu all over again. Today I was up 3k then this hand happened.

I had J 10. it was raise to 21 and i callon the button.
The flop was J45 2 spades. the LAG bets 40. I call.
The turn brings a 10. LAG bets 120. I have 700 behind the gy covers. The 10 brought a 2ns FD
I decide to just shove all in. The gy tanks and calls and shows Q9 spades. River bring a spade.
I lose 1700 pot.

Then about 10 minutes later this happened. I had 88. UTG makes it 12 LAG raises to 44. I flat call on the button, other gy calls.
Flop is Q72 rainbow Check check check
turn 8 LAG bets 70 I flat call, other gy folds.
River is a 7 giving me the 2nd nut fullhouse. The gy bets pot which is like 240. I have 440.
I say to myself he has QQ. Then I thought well maybe he got cute with AQ KK or AA by checking the flop. The board brought no real scare cards so he could easily figure he has the best hand. Like an idiot I less than min raise in and he calls and shows QQ

It just fucking sucks right now. Im either coolered, sucked out on brutally, or cant win a race.
Today I played in that local game that I said I would win in and bring my A game. Well I say I brought my B- game. I did tighten up preflop which I definately needed to do. I was downabout 60when this hand happened.

I have 79 spades. I raise to 9 BB makes it 30. We r both sitting 320 so I call.
The flop is 2 spades and a 7 he bets 75 and I raise top 200 he goes in i obv call 90 more
He has AA and holds. I ended up losing 400 putting me down about 1850 in that game overall which fucking sucks.

Overall, as bad as I have run, the past 2 days I am up aboput 3500. I am really upset tho because it could be about 8-10k if not for horrible beats. However, I kno thatI am playing well, so that is all that matters.

Finally, and most important about today. The first episode of the new season of South Park!!!!! That show is great. Cartman had turrets. Cartman is the man. He is my favorite cartoon character of all time. It was a pretty funny episode. It did not crack my top 10 but still very good. The best part is when he is screaming jewish obscenities to Kyle's mom. Cant wait for next weeks episode.

Gl,
Pete

Fuck you pokerstars

Ok Fuck pokerstars. I feel like such a donk saying this but do they want me to lose. I have taken roughly 35 bad beats in 60 hu tourneys. Every fuckin hand is a suckout and a couple of the tourneys I get sucked out on twice. Whatever I gotta stop being a little bitch and realize thats poker.

I decided to play a session on bodog. Today I just 3-tabled 36 NL. It was such a crazy day. I lost 3 enormous pots for that game that were sick sick hands. The first came when I was up 2k on the day.

I had 99. I raise to 21. Some moron makes it 36. I call the 15 more.
Flop 9K2 He checks I bet 75 he flat calls
Turn K he checks I bet 225 he makes it 550 I shove 400 more He calls
He has AK river is a 2

The second hand was heads up and was sick
I have 10 10 raise to 18 gy makes it 50 i call
flop Q94 gy bets 80 I call
turn 10 the gy shoves 650 I think well Its hu i have to be good so I call
He shows kj board doesnt pair and i lose 1500 pot

The final hand and sickest. This is the biggest pot in 3 6 NL that I have ever lost.
I have KK on the button cutoff makes it 21 I make it 100 flat call by SB
I have 1300 which is covered by SB
flop is 622 checks to me I bet 220 flat call by sb the CO tanks and finally goes ai for 700 total
It comes back to me and I know this guy has an overpair I just know it. Im like what do I do if i just call I cant fold if SB goes in for 500 more when the pot is gonna be 3300
I decide to shove in and the SB calls and has 66
You can look back and say it was a stupid play by me but IDK what to do there. They botheasily have overpairs the way the hand was played. Not to mention 2 of the worst players on the planet which is what bodog has.

I peaked up about 4600 on bodog. I ended up winning about 2900 which is pretty good for all these huge pots that I lost. Counting stars I won about 2500 which I needed because I was down 15k for the past 8 days. It feels good to bookmy first win saince then. I really wish that it could have been more. Few coolers my way and itd been a sik sik day.

GL
Pete